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I ended up having a bit of a prolonged break from blogging in April and, although it wasn’t planned or intentional, I think it was good to take a step back for a bit. If I’m honest, I’m not sure where I stand with it all going forward, and I’ve spent a bit of time reflecting on that this month.

I feel a little like we’re moving into a new phase digitally, and that the quest for instancy online is negating the benefits of writing and imagery a little. It’s sad for those, like me, who started this whole journey for the words and the photography. The consumer market now seems massively driven by video and, whilst I’m as big a fan as the next person, I’ve never really felt that’s where my talents lie. I guess it’s like anything in life, isn’t it? Moving with the times always requires a little bit of letting go. The habitual creature in me hates that part! 😉

On the positive side (always clinging to the positives!) I’ve been working much more at things away from the laptop this month, and enjoying the process so much. I have been doing some styling and photography work for a few clients, and trying to build up my portfolio in that area. It’s a new avenue for me, but one that I’ve loved developing. I’ve mentioned it before, but it’s good to just do something for someone else for a bit. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing and sharing on here and social media a lot but I’m conscious of it all being a bit vacuous and self indulgent from time to time. Does that make sense? Instagram in particular, for all its virtues, is a tricky place to be at times, and can feel a lot like the schoolyard of twenty years ago (I was going to say ten but turns out I’m definitely older than that! Ha!) Fortunately, I’m largely surrounded by the very best of people on there, and in real life too. And I’m long in the tooth enough to realise that it’s not real life, nor is it what really matters.

Maybe it’s just part of getting older, but lately I’m always mindful of making everything I do feel worthwhile. I’m passionate about creating a life to be proud of, and that’s much more about the relationships I have with people, the things I do away from scrutiny, the private and the personal. I’m working hard at focusing on those things and really feeling the benefit of them.

home…

We have pretty much finished off the office now. I’m just waiting on a rug to arrive and Andrew is going to make me a footstool soon, and then it will be complete! It feels like it has taken us forever (we recently celebrated five years in Little Wood, which seems so crazy. Surely we just moved in yesterday??) but I’m so pleased with it all! We’re hoping to tackle a few more jobs outside this Summer (it’s never ending out there. Truly!) and then I’m keen to make a start on our little downstairs toilet in the Autumn time. Houses are like painting the Golden Gate bridge, huh? You are no sooner finished than they need starting all over again. I feel like the maintenance is constant. We are never fully on top of it over here, despite what it may look like!

 

family life…

Oh my goodness, the gang are getting so big! I feel like everything is just moving in hyperspeed lately and I’m frantically trying to hold on to each day with the tips of my fingers. I don’t know whether it’s just the pace of life in general, or this chapter of life we’re navigating, but slow down already! I mean, we’re almost half way through this new year. Crazy!

Motherhood gets easier in lots of ways as they grow, but equally challenging in so many more too. There are conversations we are having now that I thought were years off, and discussions and negotiations that I still don’t feel wise enough to steer us through. When they were littler, I always imagined that by the time the teenage years were upon us I’d have it all sussed too. I’m here to tell you that I still don’t guys, and I honestly think I never will. There’s no time to be complacent in this business of raising children up. It’s dodging bullets and getting your hands dirty on the regular. And whether they are three or thirty three, I think that total devotion, that service and that worry are always present. What a thing we signed up for. Our greatest and proudest achievements.

I hope you’ve been having the best month so far.  Andrew and I booked a quick break to France early next month and I’m already counting down the days.  I always feel really sad leaving the kids of course, but equally it’s important to have those times just us two I think.  Anyway, I’m excited for sunshine and gelato (controversially it’s even better than the Italian stuff!) and a little taster before our bigger Summer travels.  I have a feeling this Summer is going to be an extra special one!

Emma x

7 Comments

  1. Lynne Harper
    May 9, 2018 / 5:11 pm

    I have no doubt that whatever the future holds for you in your online capacity it will be amazing. I would love to see you vlog , I really enjoy your stories 🙂 and your just a natural Emma xx

  2. May 9, 2018 / 9:44 pm

    It is a fast-paced changing digital world, but as long as we stay true to ourselves and values, it can be a place for encouraging and supporting others too.

    Even when your kids are adults you still don’t have it sussed – well I don’t anyway!

  3. Di Jasper
    May 10, 2018 / 1:06 am

    I am not a fan of video. I love the rhythm of words and the pause and ability to admire details a photograph gives. I enjoy blogs like yours because it is a window into somewhere else, to someone else’s thoughts. Video just doesn’t give me the same feeling. But I know for a blog to be successful, one must keep up with what is currently in vogue. I wish you well in your future endeavors; just know that there are other lovers of words and still images out here to enjoy yours if you decide to keep doing what you have been doing so well.

    • Cathy
      May 12, 2018 / 10:55 pm

      I second all of this. I love your blog and have def missed it this month… esp the lovely words and photos!

  4. May 10, 2018 / 8:10 am

    I feel like I’ve reached the same stage and perhaps it is an age thing. I’m becoming more thoughtful about what I share online and trying to make it meaningful to at least me and not just ‘stuff’ to be mindlessly consumed by others. I think it’s because we’re the generation that has embraced social media but are still cautious/old school because we didn’t grow up with it.

  5. May 10, 2018 / 9:27 am

    I love how you share everything, your worries, your thoughts and your honest opinion. I have missed your blogs and your stunning photos (I usually get a little fill from your insta and your insta-stories) but I definitely do think breaks are very much needed some times <3 I'm excited to hear all about your holidays and I am loving the new office space especially Janine in all her glory!

    x Hayley The Tiny x
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  6. June 21, 2018 / 5:30 pm

    Oh Emma, I so agree with all you’ve written here and particularly resonated with your first point. I’m finding it increasingly hard to know what to share online – I want it to be meaningful so then I rarely post anything for fear of over-sharing! It’s a tough line to walk isn’t it? I also feel that I don’t want to influence people by suggesting that they buy this, that or the other as it all feels a bit fruitless. Does that make sense? I think if you mix it up a bit then that’s okay and in this space, you’re influencing people in so many different ways. So glad you and Andrew got away for a break by yourselves, that’s so important. Your home improvements look stunning as always, as do you. xx

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