I think quite often (more than is probably healthy!) about the experiences that we try to create for our children. I know I can get caught up in that self-doubt sometimes – the kind that makes me wonder if I’m a terrible parent for not arranging those piano/swimming/Ju Jitsu (slash other suitably character developing activity) lessons, or being completely on the ball with flash cards, test practice and their five-a-day. We do our best, Mr M and I, but rarely do I feel on top of it all.
It has been a busy Summer, and all my good intentions of practicing phonics, providing vegetable based snacks only and spending 90% of our time outdoors seem to have fallen by the wayside.
Sometimes I think I’m my own worst enemy, setting these goals. It’s the type A perfectionist in me. What can I say? I’m working on it. I’m trying to anyway.
I think at the heart of it all though, is a desire to create the very best childhood for our little three. To strive to be at the centre of their memories. To create those sunny day moments, even in the midst of the August drizzle.
I don’t want to give the impression of course, that I’m waking them up at 7am with the PVA and glitter – they would love it, but it’s a long Summer and my nerves, quite frankly, wouldn’t handle it.
Also – SLEEP. I like to enjoy it when possible. 🙂
In our own way though, I really hope that this Summer has been one that they’ll remember fondly. That the ice cream to veggie ratio won’t affect their growth too much, and the TV to schoolbooks one their intellect (though going by the gems that Noah comes out with at the moment I doubt it. TV, you definitely have a most hallowed place in our home!) 🙂
And maybe, most of all, that they’ll know that I’ve loved it every bit as much too.
Some photos of our weekend just past. Hooray for sunshine, and walks that end up being that tiny bit too long (wrong turn!) but that make your legs ache in a good way. For ice cream vans that you happen upon just as someone takes a tumble off their scooter (Someone was looking out for us, I’m sure of it). And time spent together, even though sometimes it’s fraught.
Because we’re, all of us, learning patience, and to be brave when faced with big dogs and bumble bees, stinging nettles and grazed knees. This is life right now.
And this is character development too.